Cognitive Distortion

So what?

2011-10-01T14:00:00.001+07:00

Its a life threatening storm. The small boat looks like a crap in the middle 12 feet waves, ugly, but floating. Time ticks slowly, almost slow-mo, wish there's a pause button. The ocean is a harsh place at this time of the year.

And I'm Sorry.

Sideway Revolution

2011-09-21T14:31:00.000+07:00

I am here after shared many laugh, shed many tears, and drove many kilometers. Yet, sometime in any other night i still contemplates where will my destination be. Will it be somewhere across the night sky or in the other side of the bottomless deep blue see.

Life has always picks on my weakest side of personality and it always deals the most painful blow in my concience. It stroke fast and bold. Never had the chance to react.

I realise i'll be 30 soon.

- from my iPhone

Flawless

2011-09-16T20:32:00.001+07:00

I'm listening to iwa k - hidup, while driving in jakarta's nite lite.

My two little angels ran lively at their first sight at me screaming "daadddyyyy!!!".

Bossman was not particularly excited on how i approached my tasks today. Alas, he appreciates all my best efforts. And i close my work day with a simple presentation using iPad2 remote controlled from iPhone.

Great conversation and had a good laugh over lunch with a colleague and friends. Even the bad food didnt tasted half bad.

Woke up in the morning with my wife in my arms and little queens snooring, best rhytms ever.

It all warped beautifully with great news from my best friend and not so bad news with the investment.

Not to shabby.

Getting out from the safe zone

2011-08-24T19:37:00.001+07:00

Being 30 is like standing on a beach watching big tsunami getting closer and closer. While on ur back, a volcano just erupt. There's no other way beside going up.

- its how you fits into the afternoon

That time in your life

2011-08-07T20:34:00.001+07:00

Now i laying down on hospital bed in a medcheck that just went south. What i thought of a simple medical check-up, turned out i'm opening pandora's box.

- burn the ship

The Sexy Factor

2011-07-16T13:58:00.000+07:00

Earlier today i bumped with an interesting stigma "sexy isn’t what you see but what you don’t see!", and by that, the writer means the picture below.

and i agree!! it was so inspiring i had to twit it. i leave it that way until a friend of mine @vina_chubby said

@rizalyara wedeh... Trus knp co bs blg seorg ce itu sexy/ga padahal cuma liat di mall? Ohohoho...

then it hit me!! kenapa ya? dan this is my theory, in systematic order and keep expanding.

Memang persepsi soal "Sexy" closely intertwined with Individual's interest. Tapi, we gotta be separate it in 2 big groups; Man and Boy. Iyalah, most stigma di masyarakat adalah lo jadi pria atau wanita setelah you experienced sex... yang sebenernya berangkat dari pengalaman gw baca hentai "make a woman out of me" said the girl before she had her 1st sex or "now you are a man" said the boy's friend or parent after the boy had his 1st sex. Jadi, transisi seorang anak manusia menjadi Pria atau Wanita ditentukan oleh pengalaman sex.
The flaw with number #1 is; silogismenya ga masuk, (a) sexy terkait erat dengan minat. (b) minat dipengaruhi stigma masyakarat. (c) Stigma masyarakat soal kedewasaan (berdasarkan hentai) adalah pengalaman sex. ~~Maka sexy terkait erat dengan pengalaman sex seseorang~~. Now, that's just wrong.
Akhirnya gw menganalisa twit @vina_chubby, yang mana, orang kan ke mall pasti pake baju yang memang sedikit terbuka atau memperlihatkan lekuk2 atau menerawang sedikit. Ada faktor "bikin penasaran" disana. Dan people goes to mall not for having sex, cuma merupakan suatu proses yang mungkin bisa berakhir disana.
In the end; apa yang ditanyakan sama @vina_chubby sudah menjelaskan teori "Sexy" yg gw twit awalnya. Jadi... Sexy = Penasaran.

Ketika lo penasaran dengan seseorang, berarti you find that

person is sexy.

And just to be safe, lets apply this kalau kasusnya adalah dengan berbeda jenis kelamin.

Hmm... another theory that need to be proven.

Theory of Power

2011-07-14T18:48:00.003+07:00

Ketidak ingin tahuan berbanding lurus dengan kekuasaan!

- its how you fits into the afternoon

When Melancholy Get The Best of Me

2010-11-13T21:01:00.001+07:00

I was on a business in this lovely saturday morning where i heard this song by mika, any other world.

Mika Any Other World

Maybe, you want listen to it while reading through. Give time to load.

Where was i… oyea business. i bought some pinch cake (kue cubit, literally) 500rups each, i thought, man, when did they get this expensive. My childhood memories crossed my mind in instant, how i used to play with my grandpa and grand ma and wonder how’s life if they still around. Now their gone… i mean people come and go, some not return to your life but they touched you a little bit and make you who you are today. then it came to me like a lighting stroke, have i touch people’s life, will someone remember me like how my family still remember my grandpa or still talking about my great great grandpa. I mean, at some point in the future, people stop talking about you, unless you’re Genghis Khan, Einstein, Hitler, Buddha, or maybe some musician who release some album (at some point in the future your music still available in the internet for free download or your kid will show their kid about your music and they tell their friend and their friend likes it).

Well, different things flashes in my mind about my life and when i was deep in my thoughts i saw penjual kambing chasing one of the goat in the middle of the street. apparently the goat jumped out of their pickup and went berserk. i went, hey i did that couple years ago. Not actually chasing down the flock in the street, but, sit in the back of a pickup covered with sheet of something shaped like a tent with “Qurban on da move” writing pake pylox. man, that was one of a night. it was rain, it was damp, and hell it was stink. it so stink i’m used to it. nowadays i can tell how healthy a goat just by the looks of their shit, no kidding.

Now, in almost in the same time, 2 penjual jamu crossed the street all ready all pretty with their makeups. One of them caught my eyes and she smiled. i think it was the most sincere smile i ever seen in my life. they like what, 40, 50ish and make a living by selling jamu and it was 1pm in the dead of day where the sun shone gloriously while my HD2 telling me there are rain storm coming in. while i’m sitting here in a merc all smoking and slurping slurpee. i mean i just spend 20kRups for leisure while these ladies make, what, 50KRups a day? with all those efforts. Picture this, Penjual Jamu smiling at me and on the background all the commotion about that goat.

Then my thought move to,”hey why dont i record a video for my daughters now and put’em in my will letter, passed down to them like 5 years after i die. so they can learn something about their dad, eventhough he already 6ft underground”. y’know, i want to be next to them when they first get in to school, listen to them when they get their first break up, be in the picture on their graduation party, their wedding, when they giving birth to my grand kid, still around when my grandkid take his/her first step, and repeat all the cycles all over again. if only i can live for 100 years.

That Song absolutely going to be into my playlist in my funeral along with; ColdPlay – Fix You, Five for Fightings – 100 Years, Blink182 – Adam’s Song, Music For Sale – Pergi untuk sementara, Bill Withers – Lovely Day, … and … well, i’m still looking for more … have you prepare yours?

Jakarta and why i can’t live without it

2010-10-31T08:00:00.000+07:00

09.00PM: had a little chat with my cousin. it was fine chill out moment… y’know… family. planning to visit Grand Indonesia and watch Music For Sale.

09.somethingPM: a little traffic getting into the parking lot.. sigh.. this is nothing compared to traffic last monday or traffic i had at CGK parking lot… it was okay… y’know… Grand Indonesia, saturday night, tanggal muda… stuffs.

Grand Indonesia till 10 something PM: Man, i’ve been away for way too long. Look at those beautiful things walking around. It’s either way or combination of: mini skirt, legging, 9” shoes, low cut shirt, black, red or pink support bra with custom cup (hahaha i’m imagining things or am i?), (i’m sorry my english vocab on fashion a bit short) baju terusan bahan katun, beberapa bahan kaos, long wavy or straight hair beberapa di highlight, celana balon dengan banyak kancing, baju terusan with jane’s cut, low cut tank top, cardigans (something familiar), weird cardigans (they developed!), washed out jeans, Dr. Martens (apparently their back!), saddle bag, blackberry, and stuff. the funny thing is they come in pack, it reminds me of predator when they hunt. Please note: i’m NOT checking the guys!

i spotted several boobs while hanging out near the void and being 6”11, i’m not required to be near void all the time. Now, this where things getting interesting. These ladies wearing difficult getup to analyse. True, it highlighting body’s line, how they defies gravity, how it sway with the steps… but, the colours and sometime the motives are like camouflage. moreover, i couldnt think any easy way to get’em off it, literally. Maybe, they don’t need to do it in a rush.. maybe… well they moved on.

anyway, why they have to make it difficult while men only care for simple things? i think i know the answer, they want to pleased their girlfriend… and they read too many vogue, cosmopolitan, and magazine.

the positive thing is, no one (i’m aware of) dressing ‘out’ of their body type.

We left at 10 pass for dinner. Again, there was traffic on the way out.

10:45PM: We had dinner jalan lombok… now this is something familiar.

11.30PM: We’re heading to sabang, my kid brother asked for Hokben’s sukiyaki. We passed sarinah and it remind me of GTA (Gran Thea Auto)… ahahaha… those were the f***in day. as we passed the sarinah bus’s shelter i cast a ghastly image of thea in my mind. Man, wasnt she the BOMB… looked like nicky astria and part of ingatan anak2 sma/kuliah di masanya… hahahaha.

Alas, Sabang was closed. Some construction work repairing the city’s sewer.

01.00AM: We’re back at home. damn, i really missed my ol’ saturday nite. which usually goes like this:

Sabtu siang berangkat ke ambasador beli dvd. Nonton dikit pulangnya. Nyuci mobil sore2. kontak2an ama anak jam 5-7 sore. berangkat jam 8 round et vous di tempat makan, makan sambil nongkrong2 sekalian ngecek siapa yang punya invitation ke club. jam 10 berangkat, again nongkrong2 lagi di depan club nunggu rame. jam 11 masuk, nyari spot sekalian analisa medan perang. jam 12-3 kobam skalian usaha to get lucky. jam 4-5 if we’re lucky, berangkat lagi ke club yang buka ampe siang ato check-in. if not, berangkat ke menteng makan skalian chillin down. jam 6-7 sampe rumah ato sampe rumah temen. jam 1-2 siang kalo di rumah temen jam segene jalan nyari makan trus pulang ke rumah deh. And!! we don’t stop at saturday nite. there were Ladies Night, Campuss Night, Friday night, and overall 5 days a week. atau;
If we’re not going clubbing… ya nongkrong… di Parkit, Lembang, Menteng, Cinere (tempatnya maxi), Blok M, Blok S, Pisang (deket APT), Main billiard di Bengkel, JC, Kenari, Arena… ampe pagi.

Dan foto2nya, dare to guess?

Unfortunately… era itu hape berkamera dan kamera digital masih barang antik… jadi rada susah nyari fotonya, even in the internet.

Folks, if these are your picture and you want it removed… let me know.

Congrats on your new life Womph

2009-09-19T22:23:00.002+07:00

Womph walked out from that house. Tens of Millions things buzzing through his little nut called brain; " SH!T!! what am i getting at now?" x10.000.000. O Yea, this is not the first, tapi yang paling aneh iya. Tapi semuanya reeled in to one SMS he got the other night," Cong should the worst thing happen tomorrow. you leave that house with your chin up and be proud. You just win a battle". Darn it, does Flelch already know what will happen? Gw benci tu orang, all his lucky guesses jadi kenyataan. I can picture him saying," tuh kan, gw bilang apa!". Does Flelch just lucky or taking everything into the constellation or sedikit cenayang... beats me, i already got 10Millions things in my head already.

Mean while...

Flelch sitting in front of his mom's laptop, writing story about Womph. Mulai dari mana ya? Womph not exactly your type of Superman, not even close with Cyclops. Tapi kaya'nya doi makan hoki tiap hari. Even though there's always a catch, eventually. Nothing is too good to be true, that's prinsip hidup Womph.

There were Boob, Pump, Bumfoot, and couple girls every in between, not to mention couple girls every now and then. Womph always have his ways with girls. But, gw musti akui Gungbumble is different. I didnt see this coming (jadi inget obrolan di parkiran) but in the end, they were engaged. Through an unusual way. Kaya'nya unusual is a bit underrated, Womph's life always... Tricky.

Back in Womph nutshell...

Yesterday. Flelch was the only person yang bilang ke gue kalo ini bakal a joyous nightmare ride and i should hop in for the cost. Well, bukan cuman dia sih, tapi gue ga inget sapa lagi. Anyway, i still going to be an acting Manager til i submit my resignation letter, *sigh* there goes a 25% salary increase dari karir, networks, and tunjangan2 yang udah gue bina dari 3 tahun yang lalu. But hell!! No Pain No Gain. I just need to put my life on the line, hey, that's new. I didn't know marriage will look like this; so tempting and so demanding somewhat like makan somay siang2 minumnya heineken while you're driving. Ga perlu matching tapiii... ga bikin kenyang tapiii... geezzz i dont know what i'm getting at... This whole thing pushing me to the edge... and i thought kenapa sih repot amat buat Sex yang Halal. Someone gotta review the Norms, fast!!

It was entirely my mistake that i didnt put the folks into the constellation, since, i thought, people in this part of atmosphere wouldnt be this stuck up. But, i gotta tip my hat for Gungbumble's Pops; he's one smart guy alright. I think i can learn a lot, i mean, A LOT, from him.

1 djisamsoe and 1 Surya Pro later...

Flelch wondering; when did he start smoking Surya Pro, he's more into Super guy. *sigh*, its gotta be Womph or i just broke so i stole dad's cigarette. I think my creativity is running out... I think i will continue with Congrats on your new life Womph - Part II... aw c'mon i won't stomp that low... it will be; Congrats on your new life Womph - Recalling all memory.

Yea, i think...

Jet Burst

2009-07-26T02:08:00.003+07:00

I used to rule the world, seas would rise when i gave the words

I just found this new website (like i'll shared it to you) malahan, someone told me about it existence. The content sending chills to my spine, it was AWESOME! Numerous no i'd say Super-sized people's creativity poured down into graphics. A lot of these graphics never even crossed my mind!!

Then it snapped back to me!! I can do this! then i went to analysis mode; What do i need? I need time and the infrastructures.

Selingkuh vs Istri Ke-2?! (Chapter 1: Why?)

2009-06-10T00:15:00.003+07:00

Chapter 1: Why?

Kenapa... hey... how that come up? no no no... gw duluan yang nanya...

See how i did that to you :p~

Numerous Reasons... banyak bener alesannya. Sebut 2... dan mungkin semuanya ga jauh dari selangkangan. Kaya'... "mungkin bisa threesome" atau "mungkin bisa membantu finansial" hahahaha forget the last one. Mungkin, "mang gw mau aja"... hmmm ... Sah-sah aja sih. "SOB!! Kebutuhan gw untuk mencintai lebih dari 1 wanita harus dipenuhi!! itu mendarah daging di diri gue"... OOOoookaaayyy...

A:"Dude!! Me wife can't give me kids!!"
B:"rittee, but have it occurs to you that maybe you just... dont have it"
A:"don't have what?"
B:"your sperm, they don't have tail, so they swim in circle... "
A:"OMYGOD! They can do that?"
B:"do what, don't have tail?"
A:"NO! they can swim?"
B:"... ... ... look at the time, i gotta go man"

Apapun alesannya, selamat, lo sudah mencapai titik itu. Apakah itu positif ato negatif, itu tergantung seberapa jauh lo mengejar itu. Selama tidak ada pihak yang dirugikan (PLEASE CONTACT ME IF YOU HAVE THIS SOLUTION), You ARE THE Lucky One.

This is a short chapter afterall. Apa lagi si yang mo dibahas? Lu sudah memutuskan... you gotta have another one... apapun itu alesannya ... apapun itu resikonya...

Great!

Selingkuh vs Istri Ke-2?! (Preface)

2009-03-31T22:18:00.001+07:00

The idea to nulis is been awhile in my head. Tapi, apa yang bakal ditulis masih ga jelsa sampe satu hari dimana gue kepikiran soal ini; Selingkuh atau Istri ke –2? No funny craps here, i’m married with one daughter and the last time i checked; i’m pretty secure and happy. Most importantly, there’s no communication gap between me and missus, in fact she know about this… LOL…

Let’s talk about you… you handsome guy who curious what this all about and looking for pembenaran… Look, gue ga bisa dan tidak bertanggung jawab apabila tulisan gue ini dipake untuk menjadi dasar sikap dan tindak tanduk elu (right wifey, you read that, i’m off the hook). Walaupun tidak menutup kemungkinan kalo gue bakal bangga kalo ternyata you, curious guy, succeed in the end (either way) and share your experience and knowledge with us. Right, just drop me an email and we’ll keep things anonymous. O yea, KEEP IT STRAIGHT BOYS!! NO SEKONG LEKONG OR KONG-KONG Lainnya. it’s not like i care about it, but it just… wrong.

Okay, batasan normanya udah jelas, sekarang batasan hukum. Tulisan ini ga pake riset ilmu pasti. Tulisan ini cuma pemikiran tanpa dasar, walaupun apabila ada yang mau diskusi ke ilmu-ilmu pasti, sok hatuh silaken. Don’t quote this “set of mind” to some skripsi psikologi or any academicals studies. Though if you decided to, please, at least, let me know that i’m going to be famous… or not.

O yea… for the pessimistic and hater; get yourself assessed, you might had something back then and you just missed the turn and now… you just screwed.

In the end… let me share with you a group in facebook; Chesty Girls. jangan tanya gimana nyarinya…

As well to quote Barly (a friend of mine); Miskin itu Kemampuan tapi Merki itu Karakter. Miskin bisa berubah, Merki stays.

Trying this new toys

2009-03-31T21:41:00.001+07:00

I’ve been wondering how i’m going to connect my facebook and all of my blogs and update them from one place then click one button and puff all done.

Streaming Era

2008-09-30T00:04:00.002+07:00

700kbps just hit my house. We all went berserk. Everyone are hitting YouTube as soon their PC is ON. Me in the other hand have handy list of streaming anime sites. I started with animewoot.com, i thought they don't have any limitation since they working with megavideo.com. It turned out that they have 66minutes limitation. So, They know i already watched 66 minutes video and asked me to join the premium service, they wish.

I turned to Google, Once again, and start looking for another streaming sites without MegaVideo...

This is for Broadband.

Cheers,

One Sunday Afternoon

2007-08-12T17:15:00.000+07:00

Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)

Your personality type is introspective, principled, self critical, and sensitive.

Only about 2% of all people have your personality - including 3% of all women and around 1% of all men.
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

I know, it's pretty gay to do things like this. But, don't you wanna know more bout yourself.

Call me, I'm Special!!

Me? I'm from Javatron

2007-07-01T14:57:00.000+07:00

The millions and one blog about transformer after watched the movie

OUTSTANDING

I got nothing to do that night was. Then my little sister asked me whether i want to join her for a midnight stroll. yadda yadda yadda, we went for the Transformers, The Movie.

It was awesome!! I felt like i was back to my childhood, with those uh-ah when seeing robots. I got to hand it out the producers, they producing something monumental! The way Optimus transform into robot mode, wicked! and check the picture i found in the net from someone's blog...

The girls! ah the girls!! Nonetheless!! Megan Fox was HOT! And that, whoever play that witwicky guy, had a good acting, though i recall i never saw him doing big. After all, all he got to do was to looked stupid, timid, and loud.

After a night sleep, i woke up with Optimus in my head. I decided to browse the web. Check IMDB, they'd help.

Lawyer's World

2007-06-28T20:38:00.000+07:00

I am one graduated from law school. I met plenty of Lawyers in Jakarta, and from my drawn conclusion is; they got this weird sense of humour. It's not that i'm a funny guy myself, but these particular group got really out of this world sense of humour. I, sometime, wonder why?

Friendly Fire

2007-06-14T14:45:00.001+07:00

the guys didnt know where they landed. they disrespected my girlfriend in the front of her bestfriends. i realized it was pain in the ass waited for 4-5 hours in menteng, without confirmation. i knew that they knew that i knew i want to leave the premise before christmas. but, it didnt legalized them to be a jerk.

i mean, dude thanx to become my bestfriends. but, c'mon man, it's not an option when it comes to you guys or my girlfriends. then Shit happened. i carefully salvage my broken heart and stand firms after my gf broke up with me... cause of them. and i recovered the status, unharmed.

still... this problem will last like millions years to come.

WHATTADAY

2005-11-30T07:08:00.000+07:00

EDAN!!i cudnt find another word to describe my day!! The day started at 00:00 hours. I slept at 3am after trying to finish my first Filsafat Pancasila essay with enormous effort. I met a genie with one finger shy at both hand, red skin, and cool in my dream. Realised i got since-adam&eve-years-old knowledge in front of me i asked him whether he live in free sex kind of world just like we and he said yes, gross, why i asked those kind of thing? I woke up with a very surprising situation, almost naked and 7am. I hurried myself, I've got 8am class and 90% chances I'm going to miss it! I hit the road as soon as 7.30 (it was my best) and feel sorry for myself for living in this country... dang!! cant these people drive a bit fast. I arrived in front of the class (8.20, it was my best too) catching my breath, escalating unhealthy-temper and horror in my face, he didn't came! the teacher! FUCK! I decided to grab myself a cold drink and calm a bit, afterwards, continue my Filsafat Pancasila Essay. I skipped my 9.40 class i realised i didn't have those vibrate with class any more, for today, except my FILPAN class (2.40pm, yeah i can feel your sympathy). I barely touched my essay until 1pm, there was plenty o people stop by at my table for a chat or just curios what I've been doing all morning, which was converse, debate and activity involving 2 person or more. I decided to take steps to my class earlier, thought I'm going for a cozy-proudly walk after i finished my essay. I feel ready for a test if the teacher'd even bother to ask about the essay. But, he didn't came neither!! at this point of the day felt devastated. I'm doing everything for nothing. still i haven't lost hope. having in mind Toyo and Nico at canteen waiting for me, i walk gloomily waiting for refreshment chat with both of them. I didn't feel anything when i debated about love with these guys and then, there it was, nico, came with a frightening fact; he had a threesome with his girlfriend and his girlfriend's bestfriend!! WHATTALUKYBASTARD!! Threesome always been every sane men walking this planet dream!! and i!! still a virgin!! another devastating "devastated feeling" hit me!! I left the property when rain dropped, heavily, and i thought this is just one of those day!! my A/C was and still out of service!! The humidity is high in my car and these drivers didn't help either! at this point i felt like killing myself. what a misery God had bestow upon me. I feel exhausted, intimidated and devastated when my girl called me telling me she'd going out with friends and having a blazing night. RIGHT!! i positively want to kill myself!! AND THEN the idea just came up like cracking thunder, i might taking a sleep. Sleep! always the best remedies for everything, even for suicide-idea. when i just about to passed out, my mum walked into my room telling me to deliver sum meals for my kid brother at the hospital.

Harry Stinks

2005-11-22T15:45:00.000+07:00

I watched Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire the other day and OH MY how i surprised. The movie's stink, frankly, not that ugly but there's certain issues that re-invented. Like this gillyweed case; in the book Dobby was the one who gave the gillyweed to Harry not Neville Longbottom unless i read it wrong like upside-down. I sat there clueless about what's going on. My mind was gone. before i knew it i started criticizing. Its not like i'm being straight about Harry here but at least let us (fans) know about it. I feel stupid like the whole world telling me i cant read properly, now that stink.

Earth for the World

2005-11-14T07:10:00.000+07:00

I remember about those days back there where ii really care about whales, toxic dump, trees, ocean, sky, uranium and stuff. Those days back there i'd vocalize my thought and realize my dream. But now, ii just enjoying them with my own respect since there's no one out there believe what ii believe. When i said out there i meant "around me". Feels like going to war all alone and fighting a losing battle. I'd stop for a moment in my midnight stroll just to take a glance to the sky and fancy stars or let the moon stole my breath for awhile or strand myself in a pure-seconds-loneliness in new year eve's or just take a hint from hotties across the room whether they fancies me or not, after all, they could be such a beast at one time... grrwwlll... ha! HUMAN!! last night when i had my night stroll i went to menteng by feet to buy sum cigarette. I wore balinesse sarong and flannel, i just cant stand the temptation. When i got to the stall i got this idea to pretend that i couldn't talk bahasa and made buying a pack of a cigarette looked like an effort. The result is out-of-this-world, i gotta reach Rp.13.000 for a Marlboro Menthol when i usualy have it for Rp.8.000!! amazing isn't it!! I mean, of course, i fighting a losing battle with this kind of people!!

Self-Centered Bastard

2005-11-10T13:49:00.000+07:00

Was it my parents and my grandparents fault that i became what i am today? They just thought me about idealism, proud of yourself, be an honest person, bad guy go to hell and stuff. From these ground i wound up to be a proud self-centred bastard. Here is the details if you lost; Idealism go first... uhmm... what should i say? its idealism and i took my idea of idealism generously nothing beyond my limit, down to earth, mostly, i assume. Such as; Competent ism. Yes is a yes and No is a no... okay, i'd compromise to such length but ain't that far because people deserve a second chance. You see the idea about "generously"? Bad-guy-go-to-hell is part of idealism that i solemnly took without hesitation and that's why i still a virgin nowadays and i proud of myself. See? I go with the religious ground but not take it too seriously because we're living in plurals/modern world here so i gotta compromise a bit. Now, about the "why i asked then?"? i forgot!! so much for that huh?!?

Everybody's Supernova

2005-11-02T03:09:00.000+07:00

I bought myself PS2 games. One of'em haven't OFFICIALLY RELEASED (the Sims 2) or so I've thought until i check up with http://www.gamefaqs.com i mean, i gotta pull some salute for these guys. At a time like this when the rest of the world waiting for the games, they debates about which cheat code's would work with the game which take us to another debate; is it righteous? NO, no about the debating while the world's waiting or to cheat on the game... but to crack the game and illegally sell it? Sum of the seller even hit the government approved, short, legal store. I don't know who i want to convince here... I'm enjoying my game :p like rest of these guys I'm looking for cheat codes too. So, if anyone know cheat codes for Sims 2 send it to me already.

2005-02-11T19:55:00.000+07:00

i caught myself between 2 sparkling ladies that night. That a-bit oriental exotic lady in black is my girl who actually just had have a lovely afternoon with me and the red one is my java-charm ex who just taken by sum lucky guy the other day. these two knew just too well about my life, how i live it and what i've done with these two. i hardly hid my existence and blend with the cheering crowds. ah yes, the occasion was an old friend birthday party. never ask how i fell for these two. the distinction just a matter of time. my girl and i was goin-out back in the highschool days. my ex is what i called a-4-years-pain journey to a distressful love story. to make everything a bit simple, my girl is a hotdog with mustard in a sunny day side-by-side with a cold pepsi in an absolute hunger and my ex is a medium-rare fillet steak with red-wine. these two stay as my favourite cuisine.
while i'm writting this blog, my indulging fear growing and persuade me not to finish what i'm going to write. so, sometime instinct come first when you barely notice what would happen in the future.

me out.

Jakarta for The Next Generation

2004-11-13T12:59:00.000+07:00

Lets review problems our capital city have nowadays:

We got outrageously increasing number of people who buy cars and motorcycle.
NOT to mention increasing number of people from outside the capital city.
We got over-due city-plan which highly important for our city development.
And there is morale problem
And flood season.
Next the multidimensional ethnic, religion, political-parties problem.
...

*sigh* come to think of it, from what point we should start trying to solve this matters. So, what should we left for the next generation if there is nothing left for us??

Embrace my true love

2004-08-29T13:45:00.000+07:00

The dream of achieving the single aim of life -- true love, chicktrick mags version -- always haunts me for the last decade. The hunt for the perfect one costs a staggering amount of money, sweat, tears, laugh -- emotion for short --, distance, emancipate, unreasonably reasonable (women d-uh), etc, eeeetttccc.

Now now before we gotten very reasonably skeptic about should or shouldn't we fall in love, lets get over right into the first project, Women. From my standpoint; first, A Woman obviously (aw c'mon! Majority this planet population chose to be straight). 2nd, the nature... Naturally hot, naturally well-build, naturally you get my point. The third thing that most men overlooked, the brain. HUH?! The brain? Yap, unless you haven't got one you could skip my 3rd opinion and start your hunt... Okay! I know its kinda hard for some people. Imagine this, you're at the supermarket shopping for your groceries. You spotted this naturally-you-get-my-point hottie at this beverage corner, apparently she's starring at some box. You -- as a perfect gentlemen -- approach and ask her what's goin on to your amazement she said "Oh, its written concentrate". The last but not the least, ipsofacto it's important, a WYSiSYG. If you're living in eastern site of this world, culture still playing an epic role in your life. In most cases , their character build upon this foundation. So, it makes thing rather vague between am-i-dating-the-girl or am-i-dating-the-parents.

What happened with men best friends? Lemme render the whole thing into a general word, Pet! Unless its a very remarkably trained K9, they shitting all over the place!! yeah!! FISH did too, that's why you keep changing the water once a week. Then you gotta feed them, take'em to doctor when they got sick and eventually they'll die unless you're grooming a 100 years giant turtle. I don't know, it's like you're married to the animal. Still from my standpoint i can't understand what kind of love I'd get. So I see that's give me enough reason dumping this matter into the bin.

Cars!! They're emotionally cool, physically hard and with the right digits you got planet-friendly dump. Plus with the right marks -- pardon me -- like Jag's or Porche's, they boost your charming-meter. They'll warm-up in a matter of minute. There's no emotion breakdown disease known to this day infecting cars. When they gotten old , all you have to do is Tune the engine or re-paint presto!! Look like new. You can buy anykind of cars without worrying how to steer them. There's always Brake pedal or Handbreak whenever you need to stop, that's two exact rational options and two exact rational solutions.

Lo and behold, I think you just meet my true love! She's my Black Mercedes-Benz 1986 200E. She has been by my side since I don't know, I cant remember. She never dumped me.. She'll go wherever I go. *sigh* sounds like a couple.

RRRrrrrr.... I smell competition

I wish i'm a fishmonger

2004-08-29T06:01:00.000+07:00

okay, that's a joke... you know it right... i could never be a fishmonger not in million shots. but there's something in me that fishy. i wouldnt go as far as sharks or whale, lets try salmon. the fish help me to forget my agony at a certain level stage of life. the first, second, third and rest bites is bliss.
Now, salmon's a fish that worthy of eat. the things about whale being hunt is something out of this world. look, whale communicate to each other -- their other -- such methode involved some brain. yes, monkey and the rest of the animal enjoys communicating too but they're not less then 200 population around the planet.
i'd say give'em a chance to live, the whale. unless they tasted just like salmon, which make them have to live in rivers ... ... nah ... just like a dream becoming fishmonger.

Bureaucrats Bureaucracy Syndrome (BBSyn)

2004-08-24T12:02:00.000+07:00

7:30am-8:45am: She rang my phone, the 5th really got into me. Woke up in such a haste. Last minute plan shifted. done a 10 minutes shower (phew! dats magic!) no quick grub at all, on the wheel at no time.
8:45am-9:55am: nothing more and nothing less, lo! the jakarta famous lively-sebaceous traffic jam. the bureaucrats at hand booked our schedule for 9-10am. arrive at the scene is a bliss. the bureaucrats was soo very easy to find and the task seems very easy; get some papers with signature on it. if you like this, you will love what happened the next hours.

10:00am-11:50sumtin.am: we were waiting for an hour for nothing, well, there was this serial killer women with a scary foot wandering in the front of us carrying sum kind of cake knife... and uhm dats about it. after 11's everything came with a new perspective; THEY HAVENT TOUCH ANY DOCUMENTS We’ve Asked an Hour ago!!! Hopefuly “Lampu Merah” came to the rescue. We had a very cheerful laugh until they finished our docs. Now, the next task is; get our ass as fast as it could to E Building 7 floor n get another signature.

11:58am-12:45PM: the gettin there part is an easy one, waiting for the bureaucrats was another thing. the absofuckingly-shocking-pink secretary told us that the guy -- for Republic sake it's almost lunch time -- havent come yet. so before we drowned our head into sumtin misty, we declared to get ourself some lunch too.
12:50PM-1:15PM: the best scenario 's far, we have lunch!! the food were zipping to our table after we ordered.
1:25PM-3:00PM: the guy that we've been chasing since 12pm already sitting on his chair talking to a woman. after 10 mins or so, tiza stepped into the conversation running for an hello-we're-here-and-waiting-for-you-all-noon interuption. BUT! after awhile the guy had to run for meeting -- important one he noted -- so he litigated his task to my-oh-my-i-got-problem-with-uttering-words employee. everything went vague after this point, because i got obstinatly bored and tiza cried because she really pissed with these funky life (women d-uh). then the can't-tell-wasit-a-burp-or-hum employee told us to wait till 4PM or we could leave n pick'p the docs next day. then we decided to left for Plaza Senayan n get back @ 4..
3:10PM-3:53PM: New Zealand's ice creams save her from emotional destruction.

3:58PM-4:03PM: got back and the papers already signed, the hum-and-a-grunt-in-a-bump employee said ," the signature guy finished the meeting at 3:sumtin PM".
4:15PM-5:50PM: Set up a round-et-vous point at mal ambassador. since tiza claimed she cant take it anymore, she handsover the files to her friends.
6:40PM: arrived at her house and i made a quick blast and left.
7:00PM-8:30PM: astoundingly i found myself sitting in Hoka-Hoka Bento eating egg chicken roll and a wondering why my country couldnt exceed any of me or anyone expectation...

You see a dork?? no, not me.. o c'mon! i'm not humming!!

Men Stup

2004-08-22T14:44:00.000+07:00

smoke sum pot, spirit for red label and dough for gamble + 4 for a Q (kee-u/9 --chinese number--, 2 domino cards total 9 points. -ME) made everything multiplied perfetly. My friends planted for a single night out back to sum quick-rent-a-apertement rUm.

What was in it -- the crack -- nobody cant tell. but, it was sure good. everybody was really on it, the everything, it was round half millions up on the table. back there, i was wondering "--i think-- whoah this is wat dey called men stup", getin high getin drunk getin broke got laid.
~dum ~dumdumdum ~but then i got high, The afroman.
in the end, the hungover never been this ugly.

haiyaa, malveleous!! bling ol' de nudle and cho'stick!

Deliver Us from Evil

2004-08-21T12:50:00.000+07:00

Aristotle was famous for knowing everything. He taught that the brain exists merely to cool the blood and is not involved in the process of thinking. This is true only of certain persons

Will Cuppy

...No i don't know him